Exercise!

I am officially pregnant. My missed period was supposed to start September 16th. Morning sickness has kicked in already, even though it's really afternoon-bedtime sickness. I have found out something that will be a great motivator, though. I feel better on days that I exercise! I hardly get sick at all on days when I'm able to walk. Today was a sit through church day, so I'm feeling pretty horrid at this point. Tyler let me order a pregnancy workout DVD and it just got here yesterday. I am excited to try it out. It will be something I can use here in our home while Sarah's sleeping or while it's snowing or raining. It got really good reviews. I'm going to just watch it today, it being the Sabbath, and I'll try it out tomorrow and let everyone know how it goes.

Breakthrough

I have been doing well lately. It's not so much that my diet has changed, but that I'm eating less food less often. I feel like I was lead to a book description on Amazon that has changed everything. I don't even remember what the book was called, but the theory was that certain people need to feel safe in order to lose weight. It has to do with whether you're programmed with the fight or flight response to stress. I didn't understand it completely, but it lead me to think about feeling safe and losing weight. Something in my brain was telling me that I wasn't safe and to protect myself I needed to provide padding. It seemed a lot like the description in Feelings Buried Alive Never Die under feelings we have that make us fat. I've been doing the script in Feelings Buried Alive for feeling unsafe and I can't believe the difference it's made. I was starting to fear I would never be able to get my eating under control. I just HAD to eat. Since I've been doing this, I hardly snack between meals, I listen to my body when it feels sated, I don't eat 3 or 4 servings of dinner just because it tastes good with no regard to the sick feeling that comes. I am amazed at the difference this small thing makes. I want to start the He Did Deliver Me From Bondage program again. I think you have to be at a certain point before it can be effective and I wasn't at that point yet. I'm feeling optimistic about weight loss for the first time in a LONG time and it's really exciting!

Diet Over

I tried this for 1-1/2 days and could not do it. Why? It made me so tired I couldn't get anything done. Yesterday I was completely wiped out and useless by 2:30 and today I was useless all day. I don't know why this is, but this afternoon I finally decided I couldn't do it anymore and ate a little piece (our bishop's wife made the bread and it was a tiny loaf) of bread with some egg salad on it and a handful of Cheez-its. About an hour later I had so much more energy I was able to clean up the kitchen and actually make dinner, which I had despaired of earlier in the day. Mom said it gave her more energy, but I weigh a lot more than mom and so burn a lot more calories doing everyday tasks. When I did the Body Bugg it told me I should be eating 2200 calories a day. That's a lot. I just need to be burning 3200 a day in order to lose weight. I think I'm going to do what Niesa did and stop eating fried foods, eat 3 servings of fruit/vegetables a day, and exercise. I have to do something because, like I said, I REALLY don't want to get huge(r) and fat(ter) for this pregnancy.

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I am trying this diet kick start plan my mom gave me. It's for heart patients who need surgery but are too overweight to undergo the procedure. It's based on chemical breakdown and you're only on it 3 days out of 7. This is not permanent, and as we're currently trying to have a baby I can't eat the tuna as ordered because as a pregnant person (which I may or may not be) I can only eat 6 oz. of tuna a week. A cup and a half is much more that 6 oz. and that is what you're supposed to eat. So, who knows if this will even work. Maybe I'll just adapt it to what I need. In the What to Expect When You're Expecting book it says you should NEVER try to lose weight while you're pregnant. But I'm pretty sure Ali's doctor told her to lose weight while she was pregnant with Adison. Maybe they say that so people who are only carrying an extra 15-50 pounds won't go diet crazy while they're pregnant. My point is, you're supposed to get 1800 nutrient rich calories everyday while you're pregnant. If I eat that I'll have to lose weight because my current daily calorie intake is probably at least 2 or 3 times that. They don't encourage you to diet because babies can't live off your fat store. All that offers is calories and babies need nutrients. I'm rambling now. Please advise. I don't want to gain another 50 pounds for this pregnancy, but the least amount they tell you to gain is 15 pounds. I hope somehow I will be able to be healthy through this pregnancy.