CRAP!

Well, apparently I can't live with it for even one day. I did okay until I went to mom's and ate 2 oz. of cajun trail mix. Then I ate dinner of posse stew, but only one small ladle-full. But then I started watching Diners, Drive-ins and Dives on Food Network. I swear it's like my pornography. I had a leftover beef and bean burrito from Nacho's in the fridge. And I ate it. And it was delicious. But it blew my whole day. I just saw that Niesa and Anbo both posted recently and it was about the emotional aspect of overeating. I really want to rededicate myself to the He Did Deliver Me From Bondage program. Will somebody (or many somebodies) do it with me? Kyla? Niesa? Anbo? Anyone. Anyone. Bueller. All silliness aside, I just found my weight loss tracking journal from when I lost 80 lbs. and I realize I was changing a lot of things in my life and it made me feel positive about weight loss. I've changed all the big things: I don't drink, smoke, do drugs, get tattoos/piercings. I go to church, I've been to the temple, I do my callings. Now all the little insidious things that were covered before I changed are starting to come out. I'm really struggling and I know that as long as these things have not been resolved I will never find a lasting weight loss strategy. Changing the small things that don't have as big an impact as the really bad things is a lot harder. I'm going to need help and support and someone (or someones) to be responsible to. Is anyone with me?