Where are we?

Just a quick check on progress. Has everyone been prepping? Kyla - are you getting all your books read so you can start in earnest on the 29th? I've been reading my scriptures and saying my prayers in preparation for beginning the program. I've been figuring out what I want to do to lose weight. Anyway, I just wanted to know if everyone was gearing up for the real fight! Let's get pumped! Yeah! Whooooo! Okay, enough of that. Just let me know.

How are things?

What is the situation with books? Does everyone have one? Has anyone started the pre-reading? I think I might just set a date that I'm going to start. It is now official and Tyler has the job in Yuma, CO. He was approved by the school board and went up yesterday to meet the rest of the music program staff. This means we have to be up there by August. July will be an incredibly hectic time for us, but I would like to set the start date for the He Did Deliver Me from Bondage Program as June 29. I'm doing this on purpose so that if I can do it during July, everyone else can, too. That means NO EXCUSES! Kyla! We need to be accountable for having our assignments done by a certain time or else this won't work. I don't care if you skip one and have to double up the next night. We need to have them done so we can share insights. The insights we gain when we do and discuss the assignments are what will help up overcome our addictions. Is everyone with me? Please say yes.

CRAP!

Well, apparently I can't live with it for even one day. I did okay until I went to mom's and ate 2 oz. of cajun trail mix. Then I ate dinner of posse stew, but only one small ladle-full. But then I started watching Diners, Drive-ins and Dives on Food Network. I swear it's like my pornography. I had a leftover beef and bean burrito from Nacho's in the fridge. And I ate it. And it was delicious. But it blew my whole day. I just saw that Niesa and Anbo both posted recently and it was about the emotional aspect of overeating. I really want to rededicate myself to the He Did Deliver Me From Bondage program. Will somebody (or many somebodies) do it with me? Kyla? Niesa? Anbo? Anyone. Anyone. Bueller. All silliness aside, I just found my weight loss tracking journal from when I lost 80 lbs. and I realize I was changing a lot of things in my life and it made me feel positive about weight loss. I've changed all the big things: I don't drink, smoke, do drugs, get tattoos/piercings. I go to church, I've been to the temple, I do my callings. Now all the little insidious things that were covered before I changed are starting to come out. I'm really struggling and I know that as long as these things have not been resolved I will never find a lasting weight loss strategy. Changing the small things that don't have as big an impact as the really bad things is a lot harder. I'm going to need help and support and someone (or someones) to be responsible to. Is anyone with me?

I haven't posted for a while

So, as the title of this installment states, it has been many moons since my last post. I finally have broken down and am choosing something that I CAN'T live with for the rest of my life. And frankly I don't care as long as it means I can start losing weight. My friend's wedding is this Saturday, and I'm the heaviest I've ever been. I am eating 3 cheesesticks, fruit and 1/4 c. of nuts a day. That's it. At least until the wedding. Then I may consider changing it around.