New Haircut

On the last episode of I Can Make You Thin he talked about feeling good. He said that weight loss is just a secondary effect of feeling good about yourself and filling yourself with positive feelings instead of food. Soooo... I got a new and fantastic haircut. I took pictures to show ya'll.

Very Bad Day

Well, I've eaten probably a dozen cookies today. Here's what happened: We have Enrichment activities now instead of just the Enrichment meetings. I volunteered like a month ago to have the book club activity at my house tonight at 7. I spent all day frantically cleaning my house because I've been in a serious funk lately so everything has gone to crap. I made cookies and dinner at the same time I was trying to take care of Sarah and watching the clock to make sure Tyler got up in time. The end result was I was grouchy and still cleaning all the way up to seven o'clock, meaning I wasn't able to make Tyler his lunch and the baby was screaming at the top of her lungs while I vacuumed and my house didn't even look that great. So with lots of noise and emotions I finally got Tyler off to work and the baby cleaned and put in pajamas. Then I sat down to wait for people to show up. And I waited. And I waited. No one came. And I had a lot of cookies. And a lot of pointless stress. So I ate some. Or 10. Anyway, that is my crappy day. I hope everyone else had a good day. I guess at least my house is (mostly) clean now.

It Works!

Mom has been telling me about the I Can Make You thin series on TLC and I watched it with her on Sunday. I can't believe it, but it works. It really works! Yesterday I ate more sensibly than I have eaten since before I was pregnant. AND it wasn't even a struggle! The acupressure tapping technique really helped me overcome my emotional cravings and the negative association really helped me not have to gorge myself on sugar or chocolate. Plus, when you eat consciously, really paying attention to what you're eating, you really do eat less. If you guys want to check it out, go to this website.

http://tlc.discovery.com/tv/make-you-thin/make-you-thin.html

Back to the Beginning

Well, I have officially scrapped the low carb thing. My baby is starting to smell funny, I'm exhausted all the time, and I'm still eating candy all the time, it's just sugar free! I don't want to just lose weight, I want to be healthy and this is just not working for me. I'm making steel cut oats for breakfast this morning and I'm just going to try to eat a lot of fiber and fresh fruits and vegetables and just eat consciously like the guy on TLC says. I feel a lot better about this. I was taking the sacrament and realized I had to have bread in order to do so. I just felt like, "This is not right." So I'm trying something new. I REALLY need to start exercising. It's starting to get warmer here. Maybe I'll take Sarah to the track with me. She just cut her first tooth yesterday!

Speaking of rage...

So, I updated my blog today and Tyler was sitting next to me as I browsed all your blogs. He said, "I don't know why you guys feel the need to share when your periods are." And I explained to him it was because your period makes it really hard to stick to your diet what with food cravings and all. Then HE said, "It just sounds like an excuse to me." While I am on my period. And he knows it. Maybe it wasn't all my period that was causing my homicidal rage. Maybe I have a husband who has a death wish. I hope that some of the knowledge men gain after they leave this life is what it's like to a) have a period, b) be pregnant (Tyler also told me he thought I was faking my pregnancy sickness once), and c) go through labor. Then I want to hear them say, "It just sounds like an excuse."!!!

Still Hangin' In There

Well, I'm still sticking with it. No cheating at all since Easter. I really need to add exercise now! This is going to be a tough weekend, though. We're celebrating Mom's birthday on Sunday and I said I'd make her a cake b/c no one should have to make their own birthday cake! So we'll probably have a delicious dinner and then cake, which I cannot eat. In the first couple months it's really important not to cheat while your body is switching from burning carbs to burning fat. I just want to lose some weight already! I'm like Heather, I want it FAST! If I don't lose anything in a month I'm just going to be anorexic! Yeah right! Not being able to STOP eating is what got me into this in the first place. Anyway, I hope you guys are all doing well!

Raging Beast

Whoever said quitting sugar helps PMS is a BIG FAT LIAR!!!!! Sybil - sugar + menstruation = HOMICIDAL RAGE! I am so angry my back is in knots of tension the size of Tokyo. I really hope I do not end up divorced/in jail by the end of my 5-7 days. Help!