How are things?

What is the situation with books? Does everyone have one? Has anyone started the pre-reading? I think I might just set a date that I'm going to start. It is now official and Tyler has the job in Yuma, CO. He was approved by the school board and went up yesterday to meet the rest of the music program staff. This means we have to be up there by August. July will be an incredibly hectic time for us, but I would like to set the start date for the He Did Deliver Me from Bondage Program as June 29. I'm doing this on purpose so that if I can do it during July, everyone else can, too. That means NO EXCUSES! Kyla! We need to be accountable for having our assignments done by a certain time or else this won't work. I don't care if you skip one and have to double up the next night. We need to have them done so we can share insights. The insights we gain when we do and discuss the assignments are what will help up overcome our addictions. Is everyone with me? Please say yes.

CRAP!

Well, apparently I can't live with it for even one day. I did okay until I went to mom's and ate 2 oz. of cajun trail mix. Then I ate dinner of posse stew, but only one small ladle-full. But then I started watching Diners, Drive-ins and Dives on Food Network. I swear it's like my pornography. I had a leftover beef and bean burrito from Nacho's in the fridge. And I ate it. And it was delicious. But it blew my whole day. I just saw that Niesa and Anbo both posted recently and it was about the emotional aspect of overeating. I really want to rededicate myself to the He Did Deliver Me From Bondage program. Will somebody (or many somebodies) do it with me? Kyla? Niesa? Anbo? Anyone. Anyone. Bueller. All silliness aside, I just found my weight loss tracking journal from when I lost 80 lbs. and I realize I was changing a lot of things in my life and it made me feel positive about weight loss. I've changed all the big things: I don't drink, smoke, do drugs, get tattoos/piercings. I go to church, I've been to the temple, I do my callings. Now all the little insidious things that were covered before I changed are starting to come out. I'm really struggling and I know that as long as these things have not been resolved I will never find a lasting weight loss strategy. Changing the small things that don't have as big an impact as the really bad things is a lot harder. I'm going to need help and support and someone (or someones) to be responsible to. Is anyone with me?

I haven't posted for a while

So, as the title of this installment states, it has been many moons since my last post. I finally have broken down and am choosing something that I CAN'T live with for the rest of my life. And frankly I don't care as long as it means I can start losing weight. My friend's wedding is this Saturday, and I'm the heaviest I've ever been. I am eating 3 cheesesticks, fruit and 1/4 c. of nuts a day. That's it. At least until the wedding. Then I may consider changing it around.

Progress Report

So, I actually started on Saturday. I feel a lot better after I eat. I've been pretty regular, which has not happened without supplements since I became pregnant over 2 years ago. I am more careful about what I eat at dinnertime because I know I've done well up to that point. Also, when you eat that healthy for your first two meals, you feel really heavy and gross if you eat a super fatty dinner. Things I struggle with: I get really bad sugar cravings around 2 o'clock and end up eating a pound of fruits, vegetables, and nuts to avoid eating sugar. But I guess it's still better than eating cookies! This is Day 4 and so far, so good. I'll report back on my weight loss when I weigh myself at my parents' on Sunday.

Simple til Six

Well, I know that no one reads my blog any longer, but I want to document my progress and be accountable to someone, even if it is just random browsers on Blogspot. I read an article in Reader's Digest called Simple til Six in which a man told about his homemade diet plan. He ate only plant based and healthy foods until dinner time. At dinner he could eat whatever kind of meal he wanted. This is my ideal food plan. I can stay on my diet for two meals a day. In the evening is when I have a hard time. If I can eat whatever I want in the evening, I can make it! I start on Sunday, so we will see. Oh, the guy also said that once he'd been eating vegan twice a day for a while, he started wanting to eat better for his dinner meal, too. I hope that once I see how much better I feel and/or lose a few pounds it will motivate me to stick with it.

You blew it!!!

I really did blow it, girls. I haven't been walking for the past two days. I just have had too much to do with voice lessons, babysitting, and trying to get the house ready for visitors. And instead of trying to eat better to compensate, I've been eating terribly. I ate fries with ranch for two (count them-one, two) meals today. I need help! Celebrities have these, I don't know what they're called, people that stay with them like 24 hours a day after they get out of rehab to help make sure they don't fall off the wagon. The studios hire them as insurance for troubled stars while they're shooting a film. Anyway, my point is that I need one of those people to slap food out of my hands and tackle me before I get to the chocolate. I would hate it sooo bad, but I'd lose weight, no matter how unwilling I was. Unless I suddenly become a huge star that has to lose weight for a movie, I don't see that happening.

Feelin' Good

I've been walking every day with some girls from my ward for about 2 weeks and after all the walking between Uncle Troy's and Grandma's I'm feeling pretty good. I can walk without losing my breath and I can go a lot faster than I used to. I've even been eating less because I don't want to undo the work I'm doing at the track. I want to add yoga and a little bit of strength training. I just want to lose my baby weight!